Things I Hate

I hate having to remind myself that you're no longer a phone call away. I hate that I have to think of all the expenses and the bills that will definitely be coming after me at the end of the month if I do call you.

Sometimes, I miss you so much it hurts. 

There is so many things that I miss, I don't think writing will help at all, but I'm reminded that it does, over and over again. drafts and drafts waiting to be posted. 

I need to move on. 

Because moving further away didn't really help much. Damn you. 

Do you hear that? That's the echo of your voice.

I wonder if you do that on purpose.

Every time I try to move away. You remind me of the reasons I shouldn't. 

You never say goodbye. 

See the clouds in the sky and the leaves on the ground?

Of course you don't. 

One day, I'll be the stronger one. 

I'll wait for you to find me. 

And then remind you, as you try to move on, of all the reasons you should stay. 

I'll drop you hints

make you think.

I'll make you feel like a cheater,

even though we're not together. 

One day, I'll learn to stop caring.

And that's when you should start.